Thoughts in my 20s

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As I am typing this it is 11:58PM. I have been up since 7am doing university work. Tomorrow I have to present a case study to my class. However, only me and another person did the work. I have repeatedly asked the other three people if they have done anything but they do not answer my messages. Now

“Omg, I have no idea what I’m doing. “ “Am I doing everything wrong?” “What IS adulting?” Have you thought any of those thoughts while being in your 20s? Yep. Me too. Social media and online articles showcasing how influencers and young entrepreneurs are making 6 figures didn’t help either. Bu

I’ve had my fair share of struggling with my body. Anyone who’s had an eating disorder will know that you never really fully detach from it; the habits, the thought-patterns, the mindset of those days might die down but it never fully goes away. At least that’s how it’s been for me. The worst per

HAPPY NEW YEAR 🥳 Can you believe that we made it to 2022? I hope everyone had a lovely evening no matter what you did. If anyone is interested I spent my new years eve with my younger brother, we had homemade pizza and pikolo (Polish sparkling juice) because I don’t really drink alcohol and my brot

Today, I was coming up the escalators and someone was in front of me, dressed in an eclectic collection of frumpy, mix-matched clothing that looked tattered and ill-fitting. His shoes were cladded with mud - the kind that clumps together with bits of grass peeking through for air. I stood behind t

Here is a list of 8 things I miss about living on my own. These things are very small and silly. I am very privileged to have the ability to live with my parents. But it can be a hard adjustment when you had this freedom for a few years and then it was gone. Hopefully, someone can relate, and I don’

As the years go on by, I can't help but question what I'm doing with my life. That's not to say I'm unhappy, I have a bachelor's degree, a loving boyfriend, a stable income, and a wonderful group of friends - but somehow, I'm always wanting more. I know, I'll get an internship in a different country

For a long time i never thought i was the kind of person to get 'pms' - since getting my first period when i was 16, each month it would just come and go. but recently, now that i'm 22, i'm starting to realise this annoying pattern: towards the end of the month (usually days that start with a 2) i

You can plan and you can chase after your goals but remember that not all things go according to your plans. Have faith in the universe that it’ll give you what you need, not what you want. And things will eventually pan out the way it's supposed to.

Fear of the future, of doing the wrong thing, fear of the unexpected.

I've always hated how I looked in pictures - my eyes hang a certain way, my visible double chin visible, my crooked stained teeth, my flat Asian side profile. I scrutinize my pictures and nitpick every single detail until I decide they're no longer instagtam worthy. consequently I have grown to hate

Pre-warning: I realize this post is very much an I-put-pen-to-paper-and-I-never-lifted-it to determine what it is I’m actually drawing. I’m hoping it embodies one of those portrait line art pics that are popping up all over Instagram(?) Or maybe just like the logo of thoughtsinmy20s. 2020 was a di

When I was around 16 years old, I had a friend who, by that point, was (according to him) in love with me for several years. 

I still remember this one conversation with him quite vividly. I was in the kitchen of a flat I have since moved out of, with my laptop on the island near to where the stove

After my previous break up I spent a lot of alone time. I spent weekends going on walks, catching up with old friends, cooking new recipes and just treating myself. and then I got into another relationship. I told myself that this time, I’ll make sure I remember how to hang out with myself despite

Whenever I looked in the mirror growing up, I didn’t like my reflection. Even with no mirrors in sight, the social situations we all experience as children reinforced the feeling. From a very young age I began to believe that if I was skinny, by default I would also be pretty and happy and popular a

I have been taking driving lessons for the past 2 years (I am not a bad driver but whenever I start them we go into lockdown). Well in November I failed my driving test within the first 10 minutes. Since then I have been driving my car as a learner with my parents. This is probably the most stressfu

Today I was driving through the countryside and as I watched the vast expanses of the open field and the cold winter sky, I wished time could stop. That everything in this world could come to a halt - except for me. There are a million things I want to think about - without being interrupted by lif

- graduated university - spent 4 months at home in my sisters room - fell in love - lost a grand parent - cancelled many plans thanks to covid - managed to do two summer internships - started running - spent many hours chatting with friends over video calls - realised I didnt want a corporate job ye

What to give someone that deserves the world when your budget is small? I think everyone in their 20s has struggled with this. It is natural that you want to give someone the best gift possible the new PS5 or the paint set that they want. But many of us are making less than £25,000 and most of that

You know the well known term, ‘post-nut clairty’? In simple terms, after a guy finishes from sex, he supposedly finds his one-night-stand ugly. That’s how I’d describe leaving university, I was enjoying it, literally having the time of my life. Then I reached the climax (graduating), and now I find

Interesting that we're probably the first generation in a while to have a shorter life expectancy than our preceding generations purely because of the planet's impending expiry, so people in their 20s are literally in unprecedented times: imagine how different people's life choices would be if they

In your 20s, there is a certain idealism of how you think your life will go. How put together you'll be by the time your 30. Maybe you have a rough timeline of when you'll have kids and work backwards to when you should meet the love of your life by. Maybe you have an idea of what title you should d

Realize that you are not built to be perfect. You have flaws, you have inner demons that you fight with. You can always improve yourself but not to the point you forget how to accept yourself for who you are and live in the present. Because life is short. Never be so hard on yourself for your past m

I vividly remember my friend saying “she gets weird after midnight” when we were preteens and I don’t think I’ve ever grown out of it. Come the stroke of midnight, my thoughts get so existential - what am I going to do? What’s my purpose? What do I enjoy doing? How am I going to get there? Am I ha

I can't see myself expressing my feelings, not ironically. I can't see myself being with someone, giving my self away, losing control of me. Maybe the one hasn't been found, but I cannot see myself going after the one. All these love affairs seem like cringy stuff, not for me, which I can see only w

Like 54 other people I know (jokes, I don't know that many people), I too took up the habit of running during lockdown. It started out as a sad way of consoling myself after two full months of binge eating, a terrible sleep pattern and gaining all the weight I tirelessly burnt off crying after a bre